Again, nothing personal. But my Flist is so big, especially compared to how many people I actually talk to. So yeah, if we talk and you still use your journal, I probably won't remove you.
My lack of self-confidence/self-worth, in general, I think. I have a hard time believing in myself, and I struggle to believe other people, when they point out positive things about me; which means that I seek out constant validation from people, but don't take compliments well (when I get them); and that isn't exactly fair to the people around me. It's... a constant work in progress, basically. I do hope that I'll someday be able to be happy and proud of who I am, as a full person, and that I'll be able to accept all my faults as well; but it won't happen over night. It takes time and work, and I know that. I'm getting closer every day, though, so that's good.
I don't really get this question, tbh. Why and how would you ever 'choose' the number of siblings like that? I have 3 younger siblings, and despite of all of the fighting and all the hurting at times, I would never choose to remove/change any of them; and I definitely wouln't just 'add' a new sibling for my own benefit. I love my siblings for who they are, because they are my siblings, not because of how many they are, or what gender they are. Idk, it just feels weird to me that anyone would think of their siblings in numbers/genders like that. But that's probably because I have siblings, so the thought of being able to choose like that is way too foreign to me. I get wanting siblings, though, but to think about 'how many' just weirds me out. I'd always wanted an older sibling, but I would never actually choose to get one, or to change things, even if I could.
or maybe I'm just reading too much into this question, lol.
I have OCD, so negative obsessions are not a foreign subject to me, but in my case they have been, and still are, very different from being passionate about something to the point of an obsession. Negative obsessions, for me, are things that sneak up on you, that won't go away no matter how much you want them to; things that makes you feel so pained and hurt, to the point of despair (if your obsession about something makes you unable to function, or hurt others, then it's also a problem, of course). And when I'm passionate about something, it's because it gives me happiness and joy, or because I think it's important. And even when I am obsessed, it still doesn't hurt me, really. So what if I've got Jon Stewart on my mind a lot, as long as it doesn't pain me to the point of wishing for death, or somehow hurts him/makes me unable to function, it's not negative to me. I try to separate my fannish/social- change obsessions from my OCD obsessions, because the difference lie in how the obsessions make me feel, and how it impacts others. And even if my passion about social- causes can hurt me, it's not directly thinking about the causes that pains me; it's how people treat/react to the causes. Does that make sense? The causes are things I want to think about, things that I want to care about, even if they can depress me; my OCD is not. And yeah, sometimes the two can bleed together, because my OCD shapes my way of thinking about things, and how much I think about things, but they're still two vastly different things to me. The only similarity, to me, is that they're both a form of an obsession; that's it.
Old writer's block, sorry, I know, but I just needed to rant a little. It's probably incoherent and full of mistakes, but whatever.
I'll try to do a real update soon, I promise; today has just been too exhausting, because I've been pumped with all this new information, and I need to process it, before I can do anything else. Hope you are all well.
It's a day of reflection, mostly. I think about the victims of the attack, the families of the people who died in the attack, the survivors of the attack, and all the soldiers, from around the world, not just America, who have been fighting, and sometimes died, ever since the attack, to prevent this kind of thing from ever happening again. I think about where I was when it happened, and what impact it has had on America, and the rest of the world.
I don't remember much from 9/11, or even before 9/11, because I was only a 10/11 year old girl when the attack happened. 9/11 was the first big news event I remember hearing about, but I was so young, that I didn't really understand what it was about. I grew up in a post-9/11 world, so I only remember the day through child-eyes. It was only years later that I actually began to think about it, and understand what happened on that day.
This is what I remember from that day:
It was around afternoon here, because of the time differences between Denmark and America, and I was playing with a friend. After my friend went home, I went into the living room, and saw my parents watching the news, where the images of the twin towers burning caught my eyes. I thought it looked like a movie, so I asked what it was. My mother told me that some really bad people had attacked some famous buildings in America, and killed a lot of people. I also remember seeing the buildings crumple, and being a little bit afraid, but the rest of the day is a blur. Next day in school, we talked about the attacks, and held 5 minutes silence for all the victims. I remember asking, angry and disgusted, "But if these people wanted to kill themselves, why did they have to take so many innocent people with them?!" because I was too young, and too innocent, to understand the horrible fact, that goal wasn't to commit suicide, but to cause pain and hurt to others. It was only years later that I found out that this was the case. I also remember days after the attack, seeing pictures of people falling from the towers in the magazines, and being shocked. It still haunts me.
- evil feminazis goez crazy,
- fandom iz srs bsns,
- geeking out,
- haters gonna hate,
- i don't know anything,
- i feel your scorn and i accept it,
- i just have a lot of feelings,
- i love you jon,
- i stan for smart people,
- i will regret this tomorrow,
- i'm a woman,
- jon being jon,
- jon stewart,
- let me tell you internets...,
- lol wtf am i doing?,
- looooong rant,
- louise rants,
- oh man oh god,
- opinion post,
- riveting tale chap,
- the media,
- tv shows,
- white privilege,
- why am i doing this again?,
- women's rights
I watch The Daily Show, I enjoy The Daily Show, and I respect and admire The Daily Show. But I also realize that I shouln't count on them for news, or take everything Jon Stewart says at face value. And I realize that they are only humans, and therefore have faults, and make mistakes, just like everyone else.
Lately, I have seen a lot of people criticize the Daily show, and their role in the media. And while many of the allegations have been very valid (sexism, racism, and ableism etc), there are some allegations that I do not agree with. At all.
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If any of you see this girl, please contact the police first, and then her mother; bifemmefatale . People are worried about the girl's safety.
I don't know, and haven't even talked to
bifemmefatale, + I'm not even in the same country as she is, but I'm spreading the word around, in case that peopleEta: she was found, yay.
on my flist are in the area. Please do the same.
Not really, no. I've had a couple of anons on LJ trying to start shit, but that's it. No one has ever really harassed me on here, or elsewhere on the internet, thankfully.
I'm doing the obligatory DON'T LINK TO MY FLOCKED ENTRIES, OR COMMENTS YOU'VE MADE IN MY FLOCKED ENTRIES, to facebook or Twitter, post. In fact, don't even link to the unlocked ones. Not a lot of you guys are friends with me on Facebook, so I won't worry too much about that, but just in case you're thinking about doing it. Most of my Twitter feed are people I know over the internet, so it's not that serious, but I still don't want it to happen. I don't want my private comments/Entries to be posted as Facebook /Twitter statuses for your/my friends/family to see. Needless to say, this would be an invasion of privacy; if I want people to know about my LJ, I'll tell them. Likewise, I won't link to any of your posts, and I'm sure of this, because I'm not even risking activating this thing; I don't want to risk hitting the wrong buttons by mistake, so I'm not touching it.
See, the friends I have on Facebook are mostly people I know 'in real life', like my old high school friends, or my family members. I do not want any of these people to know about my LJ; in fact, I've only told a few people I know 'in real life' about my LJ, and they are all people I trust. And the other way around; only a few trusted people on here know about my Facebook, and my full real life name. The life I lead on LJ, is vastly different from for the one I lead on Facebook(when I'm even on it, but that's another thing).
My LJ: A place for my deepest feelings, thoughts, opinions, rants, fangirling, fandom, fanfic etc, all of which I share with my friends on here, who I trust with the aforementioned things. I feel like this is who I really am, and what I really like/ feel; thus, I'd feel a tad vulnerable if everything was to be shared with everyone I know 'in real life'.
Facebook: A public place, a way to keep contact with my friends and family, even the ones who I don't feel particularly close to. Obviously, I do not want slash fanfic, fangirling, and other personal things, to be shared with the people on there. Only a few fandom people are friends with me on Facebook, and I like to keep it that way. I do not want the girl who bullied me in high school to find out about my online journal; no thanks.
In fact, I don't even want YOUR family/friends on Facebook/Twitter, to know about these things. That's how paranoid I am.
This whole thing is a really bad idea imo. Seriously, WHO wants to share these things with people they know 'in real life' ???.
Anyway, now I've put that out there...
ETA: if anyone wonders what I'm talking about, this news post explains some of it. These posts also might make the whole thing a little less confusing.
It depends. If I visit a community like ONTD, I'm not there for the celebs, I'm there for the snark in the comments. I don't really care about the lives of the celebs, I'm just there for fun.
I do care about the lives of celebrities who I love and admire, to a certain extent. I don't go out of my way, trying to find stuff, that's not public information. I think that there's a fine line between looking at information, that anyone can find, and go looking for information, that's not in the public eye. I try not doing the latter. I am also well aware that the persona of the celebrity in question, is a front put up when they're in the public eye. I don't *really* know the person, even if I have an idea about who they are as a person; so I don't feel totally creepy being a fan of them. Sometimes I stumble upon things that contain uncomfortable information, and I try to ignore it, or skip over it when that happens.
No, I don't. There are so many people who deserve attention, money, and recognition far more than celebrities do. (I'm thinking about people like doctors/nurses, therapists, firefigthers, and other people who's made a real difference it peoples lives.) Our culture is fucked up in regards of a lot of things, and fame is one of them; and although you can't put it in the same category as racism, sexism, and others forms of -isms, it still does some damage to our culture(tabloids, for one, puts up certain body images, invades privacy, and focuses on beauty to a scary degree).
Of course, how much fame is deserved, also depends on the celebrity. If you look at someone like Jon Stewart, he is famous for other reasons than, for example, Miley Cyrus is. In my mind he deserves fame, the money, and recognition(not as much as doctors, firefighters, therapists etc, but far more than Miley Cyrus), because he's famous for making a difference in our culture, in regards of things that matter.
And it is some very positive changes he's made; he's gotten young people into politics again, he has made them care more about different political issues, the news, and social justice. Even if this is done through satire and comedy, it has had an impact on a lot of people, and made a change in peoples lives(mine included).
When you compare that to Miley Cyrus, The Jonas Brothes, and Justin Bieber, who make mindless teen music, there's a huge difference.
And then you can take J.K Rowling, and compare her to Stephanie Meyer, and see what difference that makes. J.K Rowling can write, Stephanie Meyer can not. J.K Rowlings books are about love, loyalty, friendship and bravery. Stephenie Meyers are about sparkly abusive vampires, and being 'in love'. J.k Rowling has gotten a lot of children into reading again, taught them wonderful morals, and wrote them a fantastic story. Stephanie Meyer has glorified abusive relationships and bad writing, and made a sorry excuse of a story.
You can be famous for a lot of things; unfortunately it's often the most shallow and non-important things that gets the most attention. So yes, our culture is messed up in regards of this, even if it does sometime get it right; (Jon Stewart, J.K Rowling, etc). I'm not saying that there's something wrong with mindless pop music, or shitty written stories, I'm guilty of liking some of those things myself(Lady Gaga), but the glorification and attention these things get, compared to others, is messed up, in my opinion.
The again, this is only my, very biased, opinion on this issue, so idk.
I'm against it. I don't believe that it is morally right to kill a person, as much as they might deserve it. Eye for an eye, or kill for a kill? I don't believe in that. It actually disgusts me that we still do this in 2010. I realize some people's crimes are so horrific, that they might deserve to die, but I'd rather see them locked up for life, than support the killing of them.
It's not that I feel for them, or that I support them in any way, it's just that I can't see myself support the death of a person, no matter how much they deserve it. I couldn't care less about the sick bastard who did the crime, they deserve all the pain in the world for all I care; it's about my morals on the issue.
Which is pretty self-centered and might be wrong, but yeah.
The point of this commercial it to imply that women don't understand sports, or that they are just plain stupid. The commercial starts with a scene of a football game, but what happens on screen doesn't makes sense, because the commentary is taken literally by the person who is listening, instead of matching up with what the different football expressions actually mean. Like, it shows how they are literally recieving a goal on the middle of the field, instead of showing someone/a team making/recieving a field goal, which is what the commentary actually means. Then it flashes to a women sitting and listening to the sports commentary, and of course she takes it literally, and of course she doesn't understand the commentary, because she is a woman. Then it flashes to a text that says "Der er så meget kvinder ikke forstår', which means: "There is so much women don't understand". Basically, the commercial implies that women don't understand sports commentary, and that they take everything literally; they apparently can't understand 'manly things', like sports.
Get it? women don't understand sports or man things! Because the commentary says that they 'recieve a field goal' she thinks that they ACTUALLY RECIEVE A GOAL! ON THE FIELD! YOU KNOW, AS A PRESENT! hahahahaha isn't that just hilarious.
Fuck this piece of shit commercial. Fuck people finding it funny. Fuck the tv executives for letting this run on TV. Fuck the patriarchal society we live in. Fuck sexism and misogyny being an accepted thing. Fuck the stereotype that women are stupid and weak. Fuck how women are judged upon their looks and treated like objects. Fuck Denmark for making this commercial. Fuck how all this is making me so angry that I almost cry.
And no, I am not overreacting. I am sick of being told that, by everyone, and especially by men. This is my journal, and these are my feelings. If you think that I shouln't be upset by this, then kindly gtfo of this post, or explain yourself. If you don't think that this reinforces stereotypes that women have suffered from, for so many years, then I would love to hear why and what the punchline of this commercial actually is.
ETA: I'm sorry if this is not translated properly, I did my best.
Critical bystander. I used to love the books, and the first movie, but luckily I saw the light. The abusive relationships, the crappy writing, the shameless Mary Sue/self insert, all became clear to me, and now I strongly dislike it. I'm ashamed that I was ever a fan, but I'm glad that I changed my ways. Twilight is a horrible franchise, that glorifies abusive relationships and lack of talent. It sucks young girls into the books, and it makes them believe that being stalked and controlled by a man is somehow romantic. Besides this, it's also a badly written piece of glorified fanfiction, and the main character is a self-insert Mary Sue.
People comparing it to Harry Potter are doing a good job of making me lose faith in humanity.
Okay, so I just read this article, about The Daily Shows lack of women, and how the show can be sexist sometimes.
It's true, The Daily Show needs more females on the show, and it's dissapointing to hear about their history with women, it really is. It's a big problem, and it's important to adress.
But that wasn't really what caught my attention in this article.
It was the stories about Jon being a jerk; throwing scripts at someone, having feuds with people, being full of joyless rage backstage, and generally not seeming like a very kind boss, that distracted me from the article's overall point.
If this is true? then it breaks my heart. I love Jon I really do, so much, but this is just so dissapointing to hear, especially when you hear about how well Stephen treats his cast and crew. Is Jon really like this? I mean, of course he is different from when he is on camera, but I did not expect this to be the case.
I feel like a bad feminist/woman because this is what I'm focusing on instead of the patriarchal ways of our culture, but I need to get over my fangirl heart-break before I can deal with any of that .
I really hope this article is disengenious, in regards of how Jon Stewart is like, because if it isn't? then I have definitely lost some respect for the man.
Lets hope that he really isn't like this article describes him to be.
I really can't imagine this to be true and I hope it isn't.
ETA: someone wrote this on TDS's forum on TWOP: "This doesn't fit at all with what I know. A relative of mine has actually met him and says that both he and his wife are some of the nicest people my relative had met in show business. Granted, this is strictly hearsay, but hearsay from a source I very much trust. I suspect some of what happens is that these people simply aren't cutting it and it just so happens that they're female. I've seen Lauren Weedman on other programs. She's a staple on VH1 and she's not funny.
As for Jon supposedly throwing a script, it's probably true. But haven't we all reacted in a way we later wish we hadn't? Given that it's not a story he tells or anything, I believe that if it did happen he's certainly not proud of it. And I also bet that he was feeling a lot of pressure back then because he wasn't American Sweetheart Jon Stewart, he was Dude With A Basic Cable Show Jon Stewart."
So yeah, I don't know.
ETA 2: Oh you guys; leave it to you to get some Jon-love up in this bitch:').<333
Mine's Louise, and although it's pronounced differently in Danish(Lou-eez-uh), I actually like the English pronunciation better; in real life still use the Danish pronunciation, though. I would never want to change my name to another one, because names are names, and I don't feel like that's a decision I want to make; If other people choose to do that it's their business, of course.
ETA: The first one is pretty much how my name sounds in Danish: http://www.forvo.com/word/
and here: http://www.forvo.com/word/
/Riveting tale chap.